I get asked all the time why do I bother to get upset about things I cannot change and I say bullshit! things can be changed. The reason things will never change is because too many don't ask important questions, or try hard enough to change things, or stick up for our rights. I am guilty of it too, I think constantly, what should I be doing? I have all this anger, free time, compassion that is completely wasted on ranting and not doing anything about it. Quite frankly I have no idea what to do! I write my senators and congressmen from time to time about issues such as animal rights, health care, public education, etc but I know that's not enough and I know it may be a vain effort. I can feel in my heart it's not enough. I'm sure there are many people who feel the same way I do, have so much passion about things but have no idea what to do or if it will even make any difference.
So many things infuriate me and break my heart. I hate being asked "why are you so angry?" when I find it so baffling that more people aren't angry when they really look around them, read the news, watch other people suffer, or watch themselves/their loved ones suffer.
We are still in the war in Iraq despite being there, clearly, for any valid reason. So many still don't have health care and continue to suffer and get sick because of it. So many corporations continue to abuse their power and put importance on profit instead of human life. So many people are continuously denied their human rights. So many people continue to go hungry or be infected with treatable diseases. The education system continues to fail. The government continues to fail and lie to us. Animals, women, children, people continue to be abused. Horrible music continues to ravage the mainstream radio waves. Okay, that last one was partially a joke, although a truthful one.
I joined a community here on livejournal not too long ago about politics and I ended up having to leave the community shortly after. It was fueling my panic attacks, making me cry, and increasing my anger on a daily basis. I still want to know what is going on in the world but reading so many horrible things on a daily basis just made/makes me feel useless and hopeless.
Now, I'm not implying I am better than anyone else for being angry when others aren't but I just wish we would all gang together, care about the good of everyone and not just ourselves and try to change the world. It is possible. It has to be or what the hell are we here for? Not to just endlessly consume, procure, work endlessly, walk by those who suffer, focus on energy on things that do not matter, sit by and be lied to by our government, etc.
I wish more people would go out of their way to help others when they're able to do so. I wish I knew what to do to abate my anger. I wish there was more human compassion in the world. I wish more people would read - read the news and books. I wish more people focused on non-superficial things. I wish people did not act as if beauty, power and wealth are the only things to strive for or deem worthy. I wish more people paid attention to the news relating to not just their town but all over the world. I wish more people donated their money, including myself (when I have any). I wish the justice system served more of us fairly. I wish people didn't have to work themselves to death to afford to live comfortably. I wish more people read history books or learned about new things. I wish I was more intelligent, offered a better education, applied myself more in my education, and had better grammar. I wish someone would comment on entries I post like this, I know it doesn't come with pretty pictures or tales of humor or recent purchases. I wish people like my family would stop being so ignorant. I wish people would stop having children when they can't adequately (either financially, emotionally, maturely) provide for them. I wish traffic would be improved. I wish we would treat our environment better. I wish we all didn't waste so many things or not recycle enough. I wish our kitchen floor was clean on a regular basis. I wish I could find friends and people I could trust. I wish that no one hated me. I wish that I wouldn't be judged for being chubs. I wish I could find a job I do not despise. I wish we wouldn't step over one another to get ahead. I wish people would treat other people better whenever possible. I wish more people would discuss things freely and tell the truth. I wish more of us could find adequate employment. I wish religion, faith, and god would not EVER be a reason to harm, judge, or deny anyone rights to basic freedom. I could go on for days.
I wish also the holidays would be more about family and loved ones togetherness and not about money and gifts. Oh and I wish I had a smaller ass and could stop lusting over sugar cookies and cupcakes. Still joking although truthful.
I wish most importantly, I knew what to do to help make the things I wish, come true.